Fabian's New World, New Life

some sort of realization..

Juan Figaro — Sun, 04 Sep 2011 15:36:57 +0000

all of a sudden, with some self reflection, self questioning..
I realize the vulnerabilities of my life..

I realize my imperfection..
I realize my shortcoming..
I realize my inability..

but on the other hand,

I realize what I have..
I realize how lucky I am..
I realize how much, you mean..
I realize how important you are, to me..

I realize, I could lose you in an instance,
and just the thought of these..

pains me..

I hate my self reflection n realization sometimes..

Graduating (soon)

Juan Figaro — Sun, 21 Aug 2011 04:56:51 +0000

Well,
things have been going pretty well recently..
and i’ve been busy..

lets see..
another month till i graduate,
took up power pleasure craft driving,
got a new pair of glasses,
bought Polaroids!
holiday-ed!

decisions decisions decisions,
i’ve made some, im still considering some..

want to travel more,
looking into foldies..
want an ipad
waiting for the next iphone
want to advance more in my skills in my career
want to settle down soon..

desire stability..
and comfort in my life..

so much wants i have..

but for now,
i’ll want lunch..

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Juan Figaro — Sun, 22 May 2011 17:18:13 +0000

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when in pain, reflect

Juan Figaro — Thu, 07 Apr 2011 14:58:36 +0000

there r many things that will cause a person pain. but everything happens for a reason..

how do you feel when words hurt you?
how do you feel when actions hurt you?
how do you feel when an enemy hurt you?
how do you feel when a friend hurt you?
how do you feel when a loved one hurt you?

how do you feel, when thoughts hurt you..?

everyone’s been hurt, one way or another, be it conscious or unconscious, the person, object, matter that cause that hurt, what do u feel abt him/her/it/them/those?

would you feel that they deserve to die! they deserve the worst! they deserve to be destroyed! they, don deserve anything at all?

now, take a deep breathe,
reflect..

have u ever, consciously, or unconsciously, inflicted pain on another?

did u receive a second chance?
did u cherish it?

did u appreciate it?
are u thankful for it?

now,
reflect,

a 2nd chance, a step back, a little graciousness, a little openness, and a little forgiveness..

sounds good?

I give, thanks..

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Juan Figaro — Sat, 26 Mar 2011 12:52:10 +0000

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Juan Figaro — Thu, 03 Feb 2011 20:35:22 +0000

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willingness

Juan Figaro — Sun, 30 Jan 2011 03:10:41 +0000

the willingness to do things, even hidden frm the one u intend it for.

I dono wat to make of it. to wait, to drm.

willingly I wait, but for what? to hold on to that little hope that one day I might be able to drm with u, rather then to drm of you.

I wait.. for when u r ready, for when u have the courage..

I wait.. for when we see confidence, independence and openness.

I wait.. for when u realise that I’m always here and u’ve started to take me for granted..

I wait.. for when u appreciate me, and want to be with me.

I wait.. for when u feel the way I do..

I wait.. for the day, when I might just hear you telling me..

I..

love you..

I wait, willingly.

to the one whom i gave my heart

Juan Figaro — Sat, 29 Jan 2011 12:45:54 +0000

i’m pining for you.

a quick break..

Juan Figaro — Sun, 23 Jan 2011 04:13:55 +0000

finally a break, after going in n on n on n on for 12 days back to back! a day where I no longer have to think!

no need to be concern! just put it all behind and leave it till tml!

grinding in such a manner makes me realise.. and makes me better understand, and most of all, makes me appreciate, appreciate the time I hav with ppl arnd me.

folks, if u miss me, arrange an appt with me, if nt, it will have to be an ad-hoc one! I’m truly thankful for the time I have in this life, to spend with ppl that matters..

I dono what else is there to say, but to give thanks!

amen!